Part of the reason is that I finally applied for and received my business license. Krystledawne Fine Lace Jewelry is my official business name. Right now I am getting a checking account in order, as well as bookkeeping. Taxes make my brain hurt! Anyway, having the "business" gives me a UBI#, and you technically need that to sell at most major shows. I can buy some supplies without paying sales tax now I guess as well. All of this makes things seem so much more official and I guess motivates me to do more with it.
It is however very interesting that soon after I put all of this in place, my husband and I made the difficult decision to step down from ministry in our church. (meaning I quit my day job). So I am in the saddened position of needing to go back to slinging coffee or some other part time weekend job to hopefully make ends meet. The terribly difficult thing about that is that I can only work on the weekends as Jim is currently in an on-call position at work. Sometimes we don't know until 9pm whether he is working at 6am or 2pm the next day, and sometimes they call him in the morning at 5am and change their minds anyway. He has to maintain this position to become a "chief" (he is a custodian for the school district). The really gooey part is that there are two schools open for bid right now, and he may or may not get one of those based on a technicality that can be interpreted to his advantage or disadvantage in the union contract. If he does get one of those positions, that would put him on day shift only, so I could possibly in the future work weeknights and reclaim the weekends for family time. One really rotten thing is that we have to take (like a kick in the teeth) a 12 percent increase in medical coverage costs. I am already self insured, it would be over $500 a month to have me covered on my husbands plan...... sigh. So anyway, any extra income I can make with my jewelry/thread sales has suddenly become necessary. Honestly, I'm a little (lot) freaked out because I don't know right now how things are going to turn out. The one thing I have going for me is my faith, and I'll tell you the only thing keeping my anxiety at bay is my Bible and about 8-10 pages of journaling a day. God is really using this time of uncertainty to teach me and grow me.
So this friends, is all of the change that I have been alluding to over the past few weeks. To some, leaving a "job" may not seem such a big deal, but even more than monitarily, it is a spiritual decision that puts Jim and I on the same page, and our marriage has grown leaps just because of the trust we are placing in eachother and the support that it requires. That makes me happy.
Until next time, I thank all of you my tatting friends, who have purchased, and may do so in the future, some of my HDT (hand dyed threads). I all of a sudden have a greatly humbling experience every time someone buys something from my little ETSY shop. The emotional support you guys provide is also amazing. If you are the praying type, I'm asking the Lord to help me with the stress and anxiety that I am having trouble dealing with.