Lately I have been somewhat frustrated. There seems to be so much to do, and so little time to do it with. I can't seem to be able to cram it all in! I'd love to dedicate more time to my ETSY business and make some more dough, I'd love to focus on designing jewelry patterns and release a book. Some things you may not know about me--I'm an aspiring songwriter, so I'd love to spend more time focusing and getting my work together for a recording project, I'd love to perform outside of my ministry and branch into different areas of music, I'd love to go back to studying the guitar and piano.
The good news for me, is that most of the things I have to do, are things I like. Take this photo for instace-
This picture was taken last night at my church band rehearsal (that's technically my day job....it's the one I'm paid for). In it you can see myself, with my daughter Meirah strapped to my back, and that's her Grandfather (he plays guitar on my team) holding the sunglasses on her face. So as you can see I do have a good time. The ministry we do is significant and I would never trade that. In fact, I'd still be doing it if I wasn't paid, I often forget that I do in fact have a real job.
The tough part for me is that I am not a naturally organized person in any facet of my life. I have difficulty planning ahead. In fact, I work best last minute, under the gun, and by the seat of my pants. That unusual skillset lends itself well to handling an ever chaning onstage environment, so it is not without use. The frustration is, that if I was better at implementing routine in my life, I might have time for my other aspirations. Right now I'm lucky if dinner is planned and the kids are clean. Don't ask me about laundry. Laundry is my nemesis.
So what does all of this mean to you? Well, it means that I dearly desire to be more involved in the tatting community, and contribute more. Alas I am not able to invest here at the blog in the way I'd like. So, I have to cut my strings of obligation to this blog. No, I'm not going away, I just need to have an internal discussion with myself about priorities, and let myself not feel guilty about spending less time here. Silly how I do that to myself :-)
Anyway, I do have a posting that is long overdue. I need to get other things started around here today, but I will fulfil the obligation of posting a tatted item I received in an exchange later on today. She has graciously posted about the item I sent her, and it's incredibly rude that I have not done the same. I offer my apologies and regrets, and will do the piece justice in my next post.